Feed My Frankenstein!
(happenings, un-happenings, migraines and BOOKS GALORE)
Hello beautiful friends. “OOOOOOOOH… you set my soul alive.” If you have never heard those words in the song “Supermassive Black Hole” by MUSE you are truly missing out. Speaking of words sung and missing out—I am attempting now to sell my GHOST tickets for next weekend and I am going to have to MISS out. It sucks, but it is what it is. The migraines have been EXTREME lately with the heat and temperatures changing constantly, not to mention the stupid wacky rainstorms and thunderstorms constantly up and down. Barometric pressure destroys my head, and I don’t want to add another factor to that mess and end up with more problems. So, the tickets are posted on StubHub along with our Falling in Reverse tickets. I decided to sell those tickets (hopefully) mostly because I am not the biggest fan of that band and I kind of just wanted an outdoor concert this summer, which there haven’t been many options as of late and that’s why I bought those tickets in the first place… dumb move. But that’s that.
It’s been a rollercoaster of a week. Just a lot of stress from finding a cat sitter (which we have for the wedding weekend and all is set and I feel better about it) and helping everywhere I can where it seems with like everyone and everything but myself. But I did do therapy AND grief counseling this week, once again. I need the grief counseling here and there. Sometimes the longing for Chino and my MOM is so deep and it just really sucks. Had a dream my MOM was there and I was worried about her being ill and possibly dying (in the dream, mind you) and then I woke up and it was like, omg she did fucking die. She did FUCKING DIE. And it was like reliving it all over again. How much more of that shit is there going to be? I hate those kinds of mornings, and then I get really stressed out when I am asked to do a lot for all different people in my life and then I am getting nothing really in return for it. It’s not even with my volunteer work, which surprisingly I am able to keep a boundary on. It’s other things, and there never is enough time in the day to do things for ME really, but I am doing okay, I guess. I am working out again, which is great and walks and weights are my forte, and I am reading my books, which has been great as well. I am trying to stay hydrated and not drink much tea but that is hard. Tea really messes with me sometimes (my kidneys hurt and I get stones still as I used to get them A LOT)… but yeah… so I am kind of bored by all the water I have been drinking, lol. But I do enjoy water and I can flavor it. I bought a bunch of lemons and can make some lemonade water.
I am excited I will see my Dad tomorrow evening for some apps. I’m just going to make sandwiches and have some shrimps out and stuff. Just a little bit of time together to talk and catch up on things and see how the shore has been treating him. I don’t even miss the shore, or the pool much although I get to the pool whenever I want to now. I don’t miss the shore, which is odd to me, but I guess it’s because when I am there, I miss the cats so much, it’s just not worth that gorgeous view to me at this rate. I don’t know. Maybe I’ll change my mind again, but that’s life, the ebbs and flows.
I also am enjoying my writing class with
Terlson and among others, although I was pissed off today because my migraine started up after an OK morning without it. But then of course my meds didn’t kick in right away and I ended up missing the class before the meds kicked in. But I watched the recording of it, and I loved the interpretations and ideas the members of the class had about my writing and the comparisons to “Gone Girl” by Gillian Flynn in a way, which is my favorite novel ever written, as you all know. Kudos! Thanks, guys. 😉
WHAT I READ: So last week’s blog I took down, because I said some things I meant, but didn’t want to cause drama in my family with it so I shut it down. Haha. Nothing serious or anything, it concerned July 4th week at the shore and how I AM SO GLAD WE DID NOT GO… but at the same time, oh never mind. So, I am reposting an edited version of the books I read from last week’s blog and then I’ll post since then too…
SO… (my favorite word EVER)—here’s last week’s books…
WHAT I READ: I just finished “Before We Were Innocent” by Ella Berman which was EXCELLENT. One of the better books I have read this year. It brought me into my feels about stuff that happened to me in high school, 26 years ago…8/8/1999-- the anniversary is coming up and I still haven’t been absolved of the sadness I feel for that time and my LIFE in general because of that moment that my best friend decided to off herself (or was it that?) with a speedball (mix of cocaine and heroin)… I sometimes think she just wanted to try it because she thought she could cheat death, she thought she was INVINCIBLE and she EPICALLY FUCKING FAILED. Not only in that, but everyone around her. And I won’t go on to say that she was SELFISH in that act, but she was if she was just trying to achieve that ULTIMATE HIGH. But come on, Liz. Wherever you are, and I know it’s better than here NOW AT LEAST; you failed me. And you failed yourself and your family and other friends. And to be quite frank: I still miss you. Also: I realized, no one ever really said “I’m sorry for the loss of your friend” to me… not that I can remember. But again, neither here nor there. I lost a lot in her death. I really did. What 17-year-old high school girl has the unique tools to deal with a suicide? I didn’t.
Before that was “The Missing Half” by Ashley Flowers, which was so juvenile most of the way, until the ending but reconsidering that ending and the weirdness of it, it’s ALL juvenile and from someone who likes to give good stories 5 stars- this one got 4. Before that was a book I had been looking forward to reading for a while called “The Midnight Feast” by Lucy Foley. This was twisted and a little bit darker than her already dark books. I thoroughly enjoyed it as I have ALL of her books so far, and I have read every thriller (I think there are a total of 5) that she has written… 5 stars, easy. I also read another book I was looking forward to reading as I am blowing through this writer’s books as well. I read “Little Secrets” by Jennifer Hillier which had me on my toes and had so many twists and turns, just so good. Gasps at times, seriously. She is so good at what she writes. If you haven’t read her yet—I suggest you get on with that! “The Girl From Widow Hills” by Megan Miranda was before that and I read that in paperback as I needed to give my arthritic hands a rest from holding my Kindle. That was decent. I think 4.75 stars even though I read it literally like 7 or 8 days ago and already forget the story. I don’t know if I had mentioned the Lisa Gardner book in my last post “Before She Disappeared” but that was a decent book. 3.75 stars though honestly because it was a basic bitch crime fiction book with a detective and I’m over those, unless it’s Jeneva Rose. Jeneva Rose needs to bring back that detective series she started, she really does!
And since these books:
I just finished “The Unsub” by Megan Gardiner and OMG was this book excellent and in every which way. What an incredibly well-written book, and it won an Edgar Award or was a finalist or something. I read it on KINDLE and it was fantastic. I read the whole thing in less than 24 hours and I didn’t want to put it down. Love books like that. I also had to think about it at the end. Had very much a “Silence of the Lambs” by Thomas Harris vibe to it. JUST AMAZEBALLS. I had 2 DNF’s (Did Not Finish) books before that so this was refreshing.
The 2 DNF’s were: “The Vacationers” by Emma Straub and “Black Widows” by Cate Quinn. “The Vacationers” book just wasn’t my thing even though once upon a time it may have been. The writing was sharp and witty but it didn’t thrill me. I do adore my thrillers. “Black Widows” had a lot to do with polygamy and Mormonism and to be honest, it bored the crap out of me. Too much detail put in it to make a book longer maybe? I don’t know. I also read “Someone Knows” which has been a to-be-watched book I have seen on lists a lot lately and it’s by Vi Keeland. That was pretty good and I also read “Watching You” by Lisa Jewell which I highly enjoyed and DID NOT SEE the twist coming at ALL. Much like the one in the “Unsub” but you won’t get it, you can’t see it at all even if it IS embedded in the story. Best book of the year I have read. It’s hanging out up there with “The Chain” by Adrian McKinty. Tomorrow, I start book #80 of 2025. Also read a short story but I can’t remember who it was by now and my list is nowhere near me. Stay tuned, I’ll let you know next week or in the comments section at some point, haha.
Thanks as always for reading my posts and my blogs. I appreciate you keeping up with my crazy, silly, little life.
-xoxo-
LWB*
Hope those migraines settle out soon!
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